Addict
Can I seriously take around this pale mask,
this variation of myself,
this visceral ruin we share like gravity?
Only your arm futures, looks past the snuff of quarantine.
Can I attend this like a woman on my face?
Can my devotional self of feet and hands, of body parts and gloves,
expression in that language you read backwards?
I speak a hurt you won’t return.
In what mouth do you recognize these wings?
What speaks those other faces you carry in magazines,
what discourse, what gossip-circulation dreams my livelihood?
Ours is a story, a face without hate or love. A face,
unpunished, goes thinking: This vicarious universe,
this inviting keyhole. If I am a lung
then you are the presence of dogs,
the ode of lilies strung dark with angst,
my service resembling your hope-stolen skin.
On the floor, tonight, you might know which masks you reviewed,
which faces you played to dreams.
Tonight you might make me a different image,
make me a disguise of hands, make me hungry like a key.